Tuesday, April 20, 2010

My Middle School Diary - Episode 3

Hey folks, this is the third day and the third entry of my middle/high school diary. I'm going back in time for now but mostly it will jump around randomly. I was 12 when I wrote this. Just a reminder, I am not correcting spelling, grammar, or punctuation. I change most of the names... maybe I'm too afraid to be THAT honest. This one is pretty tragic... just a warning.

March 5, 1996, 8:15 PM

I think of Chris Tucker all the time. Dreaming of what could be. Time seems to fly when I think of him. I think of Billy too, though I know he goes out with Erica and they are the perfect match.

At school my freinds seem to reject me. I fear they do not like me anymore. They have no raison to. They have many other freinds to play with. They reject me for something that isn't true. They don't know how much they hurt me. At recess I sit on a grassy hill and look at the happy children playing, for I have nothing else to do. In my heart I feel pain though I don't show it on the outside. Though I am nice to people they are not nice to me. My heart sinks, my self esteam is like a deflating baloon, crying for help though no one will help me. People think of themselves before even thinking of thinking of me. In a day I can not count the insults while at school where no one likes me, I think of the people people that do like me. I think of Ariana the most though I saw her two weeks ago, I miss her so much my heart is bleeding. I think the raison I miss her so much so soon is because I am lonely.


I've gotten a few new adopted sea creatures in the past week and its really exciting! I have packages to ship out to them... gotta get on that. If you don't know what I'm talking about, visit my site. You could be a sea creature too! www.zoeboekbinder.com

Things I've done today:

Finished a song that I started writing on tour a few weeks ago.
Ate a delicious chocolate.
Cuddled two adorable kittens.
Helped make sweet potato fries.
Helped eat sweet potato fries.
Some other less interesting things.


  1. from august 2005; i was 15 and i cried a lot: "stayed at a friends last night..cried so hardafter we started talking. we just started talking about stuff that we hate and that bothers us....i couldnt help it..."

  2. Sweet potato fries and kittens sound like heaven.

  3. you're welcome. i started going back and reading some old stuff of mine (starting in the 7th grade) and i had my self laughing and crying. it was insane.