I was feeling very uninspired yesterday. I am also starting to feel the pressure of finishing the album before I leave. Not long now. I worked for way too long on a song that feels very incomplete. It doesn't sound good with lyrics because there are too many layers of voice already and they just get lost in there. Maybe its good as an.... umm.... acapella instrumental? Maybe it will be a bonus track on the album, but I don't think it makes the album any more done. I think today I'll make a video for the song I posted a few days ago, called Anything. Then later I'll write another song.
It might be easier to write today because late last night I received some unfortunate inspiration in the form of a very hateful message. The person sending it really hates me, more than I've ever been hated, more than I've ever hated anyone. Though this person is not someone I care for, its hard not to be effected. Some part of me is wondering what is it about me that is so awful? Part of me is falling for it. So in that state there was no chance I'd go to sleep and decided to house hunt. I have to move, which is so incredibly sad and lame because I love my house. Craigslist was dismal and, after a few hours devoted, I laid in bed for a long long time until my brain finally slowed enough for sleep to win.
Appropriately called 'Not Sure', here is the song: